Because...

between every moment is a brand new start. and though i probably shouldnt love you, i just cant help myself. and its for all of the reasons that you might not guess. or you may already know. what happens to the day that you know you cant walk away, and even if you could you wouldnt want to? 

engines on

theres a couple of things that ive been thinking about:

a) that gut wrenching kind of sob that can only be omitted when love is struggling. 

b) ive been working on this letter of confessions, the good kind. 

c) im moving home, ive been in this apartment for about a year and a half and ive made some decent friends and i am super excited to be moving home, but i will be a bit nostalgic about leaving at the same time. 

update #1

Well, as you know, I finished school last month. I have been trying to figure out what I was going to do, what I am going to do... And I have finally completed the first step. In February I will be moving back to the farm. I've applied at a couple places in Syracuse and I think that things on the job front will work out. Beyond that, I have no idea... I am going to apply to grad school at SUNY Oswego for Art Ed and see if I can get in there for the fall. I am thinking of going back to Germany, but don't know if economically it makes a lot of sense.  At this point, we'll just have to see what happens...

On another note, there are 3 of my friends getting married this year which is SO exciting and I am so thrilled for them- Congratulations!! The first is in March. This is for Stephanie, and I'll be flying to Portland to watch her GET MARRIED!! Crazy business right there, and I can't wait to squeeze her and her beau Ben =)